I read a few articles today and I have realized that I became a doormat in my relationship. I haven't allowed myself to remain the person I was when I entered this relationship last year. I have not remained the independent, confident woman that I used to be. I don't know whether its been from becoming comfortable with him, or the fact that everything that has happened in our almost 2 years together, it has changed me and the way that I feel I need to act in my relationship.
Instead of being that vibrant, confident woman I used to be, I am now a loner, I isolate myself unless he's around. I don't go do anything for me anymore. I get anxious and emotional when he ignores me or goes long periods of time without responding to me. He's done some bad things that I'm working on forgiving him for but it's hard to move on past them so I'm regularly paranoid about it happening again. I've become a person I swore I would never be.
I need to change. I can't be like this anymore.